So it's pretty much one month now until the study has to be handed in, and I have a few worries to say the least. I know I'm gonna get through this, and do it well, because it's a challenge and I can do it, I just have to take it a step at a time.
I've been looking through my reading notes in my research diary and have suddenly got worried that I don't actually have enough materials to write my study from. I have a lot but am not sure how many of them are very relevent. I look back at the reading I did when I first set out on my research and wasn't entirely sure where I was going, and see that that was clear from what I read and what I have made notes on! oh the luxury of hindsight, I just don't have the time to go back and reread everything with the knowledge I have now... But, that's the nature of progressive research I guess, you learn as you go along. I think my worries are just because I'm feeling a bit daunted by the prospect of writing the whole thing. Looking through my notes makes me think - what is that I am actually trying to say, and what evidence do I have to claim what I am claiming and why have I even done the study, what does it contribute to the research community?
I'm going to spend next week really getting myself to the place where I feel confident about what I'm going to write. Although I realise that reading absolutley everything I want to is an impossibility, there are gaps that I want to fill, where I have thought about things but am not sure what others have said about it.
I'm worried about my focus group in America as I heard from Meghan last night that she can't do the focus group now until Tuesday (28th March) - which drew my quite close to tears last night when I found out whilst trying to write another essay. I was hoping to have the tapes back from Meghan this weekend so I can get them transcribed and analysed before I start my writing up next weekend. Rationally thinking about it, I'm just gonna have to start writing some parts of it while I'm waiting to recieve the tapes, then take a couple of days out to analyse them...but these are high pressure times! It's so hard when you don't have very much control over the situation!